"Stand for something or fall for anything"
what a load of crap, i recently did, i stood up to the guy i was in love with and lost him. yeah i believe it was for the best, but i did love him. i then lost my bestfriend, i couldnt take her crap anymore. and where did all this lead me? ALONE. lucky me. dating that guy i couldnt have many friends, and if i did have friends they had to be girls. and the only one who stuck around with me hanging out hardly was that friend. so now i spend my days watching movies doing anything to stay away from my phone so it doesnt have to sink in how lonely i truly am... stand for something or fall for anything, pustt stand for someting and lose everything.. wish i knew that one..
"The best of us find happiness in misery"
I love that quote. but honestly.. this time, do i believe it? not at all... sure im happy i found those people that are there for me. will listen to me go on about this joyful life i have, but in order to truly have happiness in misery is to have alot of people there for you, alot of people that want to hangout with you and be there for you. i dont have that. and the best way of all the be happy, having a boy there. someone to get to know, to talk to. someone you know you can rely on. someone to flirt with and someone whos such a sweetie he puts a smile on your face. do i get that? no im not lucky enough to have that. so for now.. my happiness is thinking about what was suppose to be with the guy i loved. my happiness is thinking of the new guy to come. my happiness is occasionally going out with someone whos, well, not all there.
"everything happens for a reason"
I use to love the life i had. I use to have amazing friends. I use to always find some new guy to fill the void until my next hottie came along... did i push my luck, did i put this upon myself.. sure im not the best person out there, ive made plenty of mistakes, ive pushed great people away, but what did i do so wrong to deserve this.. i cant even be alone with my thoughts without blamming myself for everything thats gone wrong. But deep down i know its not my fault.. it cant be.. or maybe i did cause all this..
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